Accountability

I've always secretly wanted to be a writer. Actually I'm not sure it's been so much of a secret and especially now. I've thought about doing a blog for a while, but I never know if I would have that much to blog about. I mean, I do stay at home with four kids, and life is pretty much insane but is it something other people want to read? Then the thought came to me to blog about my desire to loose weight. It would be scary, I'm really putting myself out there. But maybe, just maybe I can kill two birds with one stone. I can write and loose weight at the same time! My thought is, that it would make me be more accountable.

After my third baby we did a biggest loser with my husbands family, I lost something like 35 pounds. It was great, every time I went to eat something I shouldn't I thought about letting my team down and so I didn't do it. I think I ended up losing the most weight out of anyone (side note, I probably had the most to lose). I had my fourth baby in June of last year. I gained a whopping 70 pounds, yes that's right 7-0. I tipped the scale at 210 pounds. I've always gained a lot of weight during pregnancy, but it is usually 50 lbs and I usually stay around 190. Imagine my surprise when with six weeks to go I barreled right through that 200 pound mark. And so the weight battle begins.

I actually had a pretty good start, I had a c-section so I couldn't work out for a while and it was slow going. But I trained with my three sister's for a sprint triathlon this fall and the weight started coming off pretty good. The triathlon was one of the hardest things I've ever done physically (although I am certain I say this after every race I compete in). But this time I mean it! I finished 5th...from the last. I can actually tell you each person I beat, but I'll save that story for a different day.

Anyway, after the triathlon I decided to take some time off for the holidays. Right before Christmas I was weighing in at 159 lbs. But between no exercise and eating everything I wanted I am starting the year off at 163 lbs. My goal is to be at 135 lbs by my baby's first birthday, June 12. I know the actual weight "doesn't matter" and it's how your cloths fit and blah blah blah, but I like using weight as my measuring tool. I like to see the numbers go down week to week. June 12 is 22 weeks away from Monday January 12. My goal is 28 pounds. That is a little more than one pound a week. It seems achievable. But I know I can't do this without accountability and that is where this blog comes in. For example I'm not sure I would have eaten four (or five) cookie dough balls this morning if I knew someone besides my two-year-old knew about it. So I am doing this and I am going to be honest and it could get embarrassing but then that may make for good reading which is my other goal anyway...to write.